Adele Evershed’s Wannabe from Alien Buddha Press is an insightful and often painful novella-in-flash into the abuse that women often face and the way they live afterward. There are any number of ways that this work distinguishes itself, not the least of which is that it is a novella-in-flash that includes poetry. The prose of the book is clearly informed by the poetic language that moves the narrative and the points she is making as much as any other aspect of the work. This poetic sensibility along with her magical realism allow Evershed to understand what the women of her work are going through in a new way that I have not seen before.
Wannabe is often painful and difficult to read because of the intensity of what Evershed is exploring; however, her characters are real and ultimately, we are given a vision of how to go through these times. In the final story, ‘Sliding Doors or She Never Had Those Red Dress Blues,’ the main views her life and her body from the point-of-view of someone who has survived abuse and pain.
She ran her fingers over her scars, tokens of what she once thought of as too much love. But really, they were hieroglyphics that told the story of her marriage etched on the tomb of her silence. The one on her thigh, where Ed had stabbed her with the umbrella, throbbed when she touched it, and her black eye peeked through the concealer . . . On the day he hit her for the last time, she became a storm . . . when she screamed, “No” her voice was thunder and her skin lightning (66).
Evershed gives us a vision of a woman who has survived and come through to the other side with a much greater understanding of what she has been through and who she is. She gives us a character who does not see herself as a victim without power, but rather as one who can face and live through violence. In ‘Full Fathom Five,’ an abused girl learns how to breathe underwater when the punishment for not accepting her stepfather’s sexual assault is that he holds her head underwater. The magical realism of the piece helps to develop a character who can escape the cycle of shame that is often visited upon sexual assault survivors.
One of the aspects that I appreciate about the novella-in-flash is that it can go beyond narrative and highlight other aspects of storytelling; Wannabe’s use of poetry and poetic language often halts any sense of narrative, so that she can meditate on a concept that can and should be developed. In ‘Remains Found,’ straddles an interesting line between poetry and prose. At times it feels like and is structured like poetry and at times like prose. This duality is a strength as the narrator contemplates the remains of a body and is able to take the time to consider how society has failed when we discover abuse by discovering a corpse when the corpse speaks to us:
Look I have always been here taking up the negative space next to the broken wheelbarrow and skunk cabbage to mask the rot. Maybe you should have tended me — helped me grow — and found out what I looked like on the insides
without an autopsy (67)
This piece with its line breaks mingled with a longer prose section uses a hybrid form, but other pieces are clearly prose or poetry. There is never a moment, however, when her work is not informed by poetry. There is music and power to her language.
Wannabe is an exceptional and powerful work. It is socially important as well. Evershed is bringing this social evil to light and showing not only that survivors should not feel shame but how they might do that.
John Brantingham 11th June 2023
