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Under Druid’s Hill by Gerald Killingworth Troubadour Publishing

Under Druid’s Hill by Gerald Killingworth Troubadour Publishing

There is a quest in this novel, a mystery to solve, rooted in parallels and counterparts. It involves the slow unravelling of memories, the unwrapping of secrets and a journey which is more than a family trip to Anglesey but involves a search for truth and the essence of self.

An intriguing story that raises questions in the reader’s mind from the start. Why is the family going on this holiday in response to an apparent whim and obsession on Michael’s part? Why do his childhood memories of playing with Olwen seem so symbolic? What is the significance of the dolls, of Droody Hill, the holes that appear in the land around the church and seem to be leading to ‘some lower region of death’? There are no easy, straightforward answers to these and other questions. They are for the reader to puzzle out.

An aspect of Under Druids’ Hill that I found both tantalising and captivating is the depiction of the family, the psychology of their contradictory personalities and relationships. Sandra, the mother, sets out on the trip determined to be agreeable and go along with her husband’s need to revive and explore his childhood, but she refers to the holiday as a ‘crisis’ and longs for meaningful conversations and more of her husband’s attention. She seems bewildered at times and at a loss to understand or relate to her small daughter.

Charlotte, this daughter, insists on being known as Tottie. Described as ‘a mixture of the fetching and the peculiar’ she is a mass of contradictions – precocious and demanding but also clear-sighted, perceptive and ‘responsive to beauty.’ Michael is ‘in awe’ of his daughter as if she’s ‘a refugee from a country one had barely heard of.’

Being a parent doesn’t seem to come easily to Michael. Fatherhood is a role he feels obliged to play with determination. After a day at the beach, we are told that ‘he had enjoyed playing families.’ He has such hopes for this holiday, this chance to re-encounter Olwen, the little girl whose friendship had seemed magical. ‘I was unbelievably happy that summer,’ he says when questioned by his wife. ‘And it was all because I was Olwen’s friend, her best friend.’ 

Olwen, for Michael, ‘stood at the gate of that summer’. The memory of the brief time was ‘set in amber. It glowed and hadn’t tarnished since the moment he boarded the train back to London.’ If Tottie could meet the adult Olwen, he thinks, she too could experience the magic, the ‘transfiguring’ and ‘the indefinable sense of rightness’. 

The novel’s title ‘Under Druids’ Hill’ creates its own atmosphere of mystery and things that are hidden. Reputed to be the last stand of the Druids against the Romans it enhances the sense of unease and the lost. The dolls do the same, adding a tone that is sinister and, if not evil, at least of disquiet. Pamela and Belinda are Tottie’s dolls, like puppets they often speak for her, are ‘a piece of her personality’, present critical assessments of characters and events. Tottie herself is glad when she can have ‘a respite from the dolls. She hated their cold fixity at times.’ Paralleled with this unpleasant pair is Olwen’s doll ‘Scraggy Aggy’, an ancient rag doll dressed in tear-stained grey fabric and with large glass eyes on the ends of wires.

Symbolic and bizarre amid a book of strangeness and a search for ‘Welsh magic’ which might have a redemptive power. During the summer of Olwen, Michael felt himself ‘adored,’ was as ‘near as possible to be in a state of grace.’ The unhappiness of a disordered childhood home was always there for Michael but ‘in that period of grace, he had never heard anyone speak of divorce.’ For the adult Michael it all becomes centred on Tottie. The place he had found could be, for her, ‘a place where grace was possible.’

The narrative has an unexpected, ambiguous ending but I won’t say any more. Under Druids’ Hill is a remarkable book with much to explore and consider.

Mandy Pannett 11th March 2026

Fabrics, Fancies & Fens by Gerald Killingworth (Tears in the Fence)

Fabrics, Fancies & Fens by Gerald Killingworth (Tears in the Fence)

The first section of Gerald Killingworth’s superb new collection is called ‘Fabrics’ and is preceded by the author’s note concerning his ‘sense of fabric’ which links closely with imagination. Readers will have their own mental images of fabrics but they’re unlikely to include some of the diverse objects in these poems such as bread, a drumskin, ancient scrolls, shrapnel, a gutted and carved up pig, a feather, and a marble fragment from a chiffonier top.

Extraordinary images, and in this section we have examples of extraordinary juxtapositions as well with graphic details linking humour and horror, the quotidian with the tragic. ‘Sambridges’, for example, begins with humour in its title, the mispronunciation of the word ‘sandwiches’. There is laughter and a feeling of comfort as the narrator nibbles the dry slices which gives him the chance ‘to get the feel and to remember’ but then, in an abrupt shift, we are suddenly in the middle of a battlefield where a sandwich is offered to fill the gap ‘between breakfast and dying’ and the mouldy bread parallels the decay of rotting bodies in the mud, the ‘cheese and jam already indistinguishable from the/ muck they fell in.’

‘Jack’s Drum’ is a subtle confrontation of the question of value. The drum with its softness derived from ‘the downy pelt’ of a calf is worth the cost because of the exquisite music it creates, but, in a clash between harmony and disharmony, no one hears ‘the silent sounds – the anguished/bleating, the stunning smack.’ 

‘Great Uncle Harry’ features in ‘I Have Four Children’, presenting an image of ‘elegance along a seafront somewhere, /complacent, dapper’. Someone else takes care of the pig he owns, the ‘feeding, killing, quartering’ while tender hearted Connie shows no qualms or queasiness when called on to ‘slice off a porker’s/nose and turn his jowls inside out.’ This, like war, is slaughter and mess off stage.

The second part of the collection, ‘Fancies’,  is full of sounds as well. In ‘May Morning, Cerne Abbas’ we are taken to ‘a hill of cloth of gold’ where the air is full of trumpets and horns and the vibrations of hundreds of cowslips – but all these sounds are ‘too subtle for us.’

I admire all the poems in Fabrics, Fancies & Fens but I think my favourite section is this one – ‘Fancies’ – which is clustered with magic, music, dance and, most of all, imagination. ‘True magic isn’t ready-made,’ says the narrator in ‘Poundbury Wassail’, ‘we need to conjure it defying all sorts of gloom.’ Speculative writing that explores possibilities beyond any current reality is a popular genre in fiction and is becoming more so in poetry with elements like science fiction, alternative histories, myth and its contemporary relevance. But fantasy with its cast of giants and fairy folk, its world of ‘what ifs’, is so much harder to write about in a way that’s both imaginative and ‘convincing’. Gerald Killingworth is an exceptional writer and achieves it, perfectly in my opinion, as poems in this collection show. 

He does this by creating an atmosphere of mystery and ambiguity, by inviting us to explore the curious and inexplicable, to share a glimpse of an ‘inner vision’. ‘I am a stranger facing down shadows’ his narrator says in ‘An Etruscan Tomb Outside Orvieto’ as he haunts the ‘dead streets’ and wonders if ancient deities and spirits ‘haunt ours and wonder what/the world has come to.’

This poem also gives an account of a strange experience where, at the threshold of the tomb, with not a plum tree in sight, the narrator sees two unripe plums ‘green as the/verdigris on an Etruscan bronze’ and wonders:

          Are they an offering from…whom? an 

          enticement from some shade? Their 

          greenness is unnatural – perpetual?

          like the hillsides of the afterlife painted in 

          tombs elsewhere, its music never-ending, 

          its wine never sour.

The final section of Fabrics, Fancies & Fens is titled ‘Fenlandia’ – a play on words and subtle allusions which appear throughout the collection and are a delight to come across. Many earlier themes and images recur – land here is ‘dissolved in water’ and it’s ‘water so/thick it has texture’. Sunrise in the Fens is a ‘bloody smudge’ while a downpour of rain is ‘incessant drum-rolling on the windows’ that later washes down ‘the bloodied tarmac/after another hit and run.’ The poem ‘The Bog Oaks’ recalls ‘an echo of centuries’:

       Millennia since their thoughts reached 

       cloudwards, branches feathering the unreachable.             

       Precipitation became intense, ground waters rose,

       reeds and sedges, confident, empire-building, 

       ingratiated themselves into every spinney:

Fabric, Fancies & Fens is a stunning collection – witty, lyrical, quirky and insightful. It is one to read many times. 

Mandy Pannett 22nd August 2025

Hy Brazil by Gerald Killingworth (Matador)

Hy Brazil by Gerald Killingworth (Matador)

Hy Brazil is an absorbing and compelling book written in the tradition of historical fantasy, which is an intriguing genre. The narrative is set in Elizabethan England, beginning in the year 1591, but the fantastic elements, which encompass two thirds of the novel, take place in a fabled realm inhabited by the elven folk, the phantom island of Hy Brazil supposedly in the Atlantic somewhere west of Ireland and marked on several maps of the time. Legends describe this Celtic Otherworld as cloaked in mist except for one day every seven years when it becomes visible. Always, however, it is supposed to be unreachable.

The book is written in the first person by Edward Harry, and everything is perceived from his viewpoint. This is clearly stated in the Foreword which declares ‘I myself, Edward Harry, am the only begetter and so I shall be the first word in all the telling.’ The Prologue continues this assertion with the opening line ‘I was born I know not when; where and from what parents no soul has ever thought fit to inform me.’ The generalised name of ‘Boy’ soon irritates the child who insists of being called by the names of two great kings. This attitude is a key to Edward’s character as he reveals himself to be impetuous, impulsive, arrogant, a quick-witted character with a love of adventure, ambitious and self-seeking to the hilt as he ‘reached out for glory and the company of my betters.’ Edward Harry has a great many faults which frequently land him in trouble, but he is also honourable and principled, compassionate, loyal, and very likeable.

Early in the book, Edward becomes Secretary to Edmund Spenser, the poet, and I found this a fascinating section. The background is the imposition of rule by the English upon Ireland and the hardship and suffering this caused. The name of Spenser in Ireland is still one to be spoken with a curse. Edward Harry himself is proud of being English. His opinion on the situation is ‘That they (the Irish) had lost all their possessions no doubt followed because they were unfit to hold them.’ Spenser himself is presented as something of an enigma for ‘he seemed to be two men; the one quite willing to root out all Irishmen so that the other, the poet, could enjoy their countryside in peace.’

A subtle touch introduces the fantastic elements of Hy Brazil when Edward and his friend Calvagh are blown off course while at sea in a small boat and find themselves landing on the shores of the fabulous island, not knowing what adventures will befall them. ‘We were drawn,’ says Edward, ‘wherever the green line led, to the rainbow’s end, to the rim of the world, or perhaps to Hell.’ The situation, in fact, does develop into something resembling Hell for Hy Brazil is not a pretty, dream-like island with elves and fairies and sweet-talking animals but a place of brutality, violence and ongoing savagery and conflict.

Edward’s adventures are riveting and I, for one, relished the strangeness, the grotesques, and monstrosities and the ‘motley assemblage of oddities’ that creep into the novel under Gerald Killingworth’s brilliantly skilful and imaginative pen.

This is most definitely a book that once started is not to be put down. Hy Brazil is intended to be the first of a trilogy and I hope it will be. It is too good not to be continued. Every reader will want to know what happens next.

For further information and purchase of copies contact Gerald Killingworth at gkllngwrth@aol.com

Mandy Pannett 18th October 2022

Emptying Houses by Gerald Killingworth (Dempsey & Windle)

Emptying Houses by Gerald Killingworth (Dempsey & Windle)

If you relish words – their sounds and subtleties of meaning – then this is the book for you. I say ‘relish’ deliberately because Gerald Killingworth’s masterly skill turns words into something one can almost taste and savour for a long time afterwards.

‘Water Words’ illustrates this perfectly. Syllables become ‘fragments of ocean’ and their length corresponds to the different sounds and sizes of liquid. The monosyllables ‘drip’ and ‘splash’ represent the moment of the ocean’s birth but soon both syllables and water grow into ‘puddle’ and ‘rivulet’, then into ‘cataracts’ and finally, with a thrashing surge, into the magnificent, four syllabled ‘inundations.’ 

‘Tongues’ is another example of the pleasure that words bring, the joy to be found in the ‘arcane quaintness’ of ‘ariff’, ‘crizzle’, ‘fizgigging’, ‘slaughter’ and ‘budge’. But this poem is about more than the fun of playing with parts of speech. It’s about erosion, loss and the incomprehension that occurs when ‘History shifts its axis’ and once rich languages are fractured, becoming ‘irrelevant/a footnote at best.’

Concern with this erosion of language is an important motif in Emptying Houses and one that particularly appeals to me. But the main feature of this collection, the quality that makes this book so extraordinary and unique, is the way Gerald Killingworth handles humour, very, very dark humour. Anyone who has heard him read ‘A Tale of a Turd’ will know instantly what I mean. No details of the dead Viking’s excrement are spared, rather they are elaborated on – the owner of the turd, now ‘a famous exhibit’ in York’s Museum, is given the name ‘Snorri’, his eating habits are analysed by scientists who sniff ‘this marvel’, weigh it and pick it apart, concluding that Snorri ‘lived on meat’. A human touch is added as the reader imagines this character vowing ‘to eat more greens with his bacon.’ So, there is a lot of humour, laugh-out-loud humour, in the first part at least of this poem. But then we have the extra brilliant touch that Gerald Killingworth brings to all his poems – the poignancy that overrides despair, the sadness and regret that is always just below the surface. Snorri’s turd is what remains of him, the one thing he is remembered for. That is his reputation though ‘Hardly a blueprint for the whole man.’

Another poem that illustrates this blend of horror and pathos is ‘Rigid with Indignation’ where the skull of Asra, a former temple dancer, is being analysed. The poet wonders if the process might reveal her thoughts and ‘unconfessed ambition’ but any splendours, sadly, do not show up ‘in this vacuity’ which is ‘dull as an empty ice-cream scoop.’

There are also ‘vacant spaces’ in the title poem ‘Emptying Houses’ which is about the sadness of clearing a house after the death of the occupant whose ‘history is over’. Even more poignant and tender is J.I:

            Working through the house

            we found roll upon roll of it,

            Christmas wrapping paper,

            as if present-giving

            were assured for decades to come.

Impossible to read these lines and not share the grief at the waste and finality of it all.

Emptying Houses is a unique poetry collection and Gerald Killingworth is an original and special writer. I appreciate all the poems but would find it hard to choose just one as my favourite. Maybe it would be ‘Pebbles’ where the stones make a plea for wetness, to be ‘on a tide-line’ not inland and ‘faded, dusty, dim’.  Or there is the beautiful ‘In Praise of Chlorophyll’ where everything on the earth has been destroyed except for the ‘soft green throw’ of grass. But if I could only choose one piece, I think it would be ‘Habits’ which seems to echo the mood of the John Clare epigraph at the beginning of the book. It’s short and simple and perfect: 

            Take the long way round sometimes,

            B doesn’t always have to follow A.

            Scuff leaves, kick stones

            drift.

            Jump into puddles more –

            remember they hold the sky.

            Peep around corners

            gaze unfocused

            dream.

Mandy Pannett 20th July 2022