Category Archives: English Fiction

Under Druid’s Hill by Gerald Killingworth Troubadour Publishing

Under Druid’s Hill by Gerald Killingworth Troubadour Publishing

There is a quest in this novel, a mystery to solve, rooted in parallels and counterparts. It involves the slow unravelling of memories, the unwrapping of secrets and a journey which is more than a family trip to Anglesey but involves a search for truth and the essence of self.

An intriguing story that raises questions in the reader’s mind from the start. Why is the family going on this holiday in response to an apparent whim and obsession on Michael’s part? Why do his childhood memories of playing with Olwen seem so symbolic? What is the significance of the dolls, of Droody Hill, the holes that appear in the land around the church and seem to be leading to ‘some lower region of death’? There are no easy, straightforward answers to these and other questions. They are for the reader to puzzle out.

An aspect of Under Druids’ Hill that I found both tantalising and captivating is the depiction of the family, the psychology of their contradictory personalities and relationships. Sandra, the mother, sets out on the trip determined to be agreeable and go along with her husband’s need to revive and explore his childhood, but she refers to the holiday as a ‘crisis’ and longs for meaningful conversations and more of her husband’s attention. She seems bewildered at times and at a loss to understand or relate to her small daughter.

Charlotte, this daughter, insists on being known as Tottie. Described as ‘a mixture of the fetching and the peculiar’ she is a mass of contradictions – precocious and demanding but also clear-sighted, perceptive and ‘responsive to beauty.’ Michael is ‘in awe’ of his daughter as if she’s ‘a refugee from a country one had barely heard of.’

Being a parent doesn’t seem to come easily to Michael. Fatherhood is a role he feels obliged to play with determination. After a day at the beach, we are told that ‘he had enjoyed playing families.’ He has such hopes for this holiday, this chance to re-encounter Olwen, the little girl whose friendship had seemed magical. ‘I was unbelievably happy that summer,’ he says when questioned by his wife. ‘And it was all because I was Olwen’s friend, her best friend.’ 

Olwen, for Michael, ‘stood at the gate of that summer’. The memory of the brief time was ‘set in amber. It glowed and hadn’t tarnished since the moment he boarded the train back to London.’ If Tottie could meet the adult Olwen, he thinks, she too could experience the magic, the ‘transfiguring’ and ‘the indefinable sense of rightness’. 

The novel’s title ‘Under Druids’ Hill’ creates its own atmosphere of mystery and things that are hidden. Reputed to be the last stand of the Druids against the Romans it enhances the sense of unease and the lost. The dolls do the same, adding a tone that is sinister and, if not evil, at least of disquiet. Pamela and Belinda are Tottie’s dolls, like puppets they often speak for her, are ‘a piece of her personality’, present critical assessments of characters and events. Tottie herself is glad when she can have ‘a respite from the dolls. She hated their cold fixity at times.’ Paralleled with this unpleasant pair is Olwen’s doll ‘Scraggy Aggy’, an ancient rag doll dressed in tear-stained grey fabric and with large glass eyes on the ends of wires.

Symbolic and bizarre amid a book of strangeness and a search for ‘Welsh magic’ which might have a redemptive power. During the summer of Olwen, Michael felt himself ‘adored,’ was as ‘near as possible to be in a state of grace.’ The unhappiness of a disordered childhood home was always there for Michael but ‘in that period of grace, he had never heard anyone speak of divorce.’ For the adult Michael it all becomes centred on Tottie. The place he had found could be, for her, ‘a place where grace was possible.’

The narrative has an unexpected, ambiguous ending but I won’t say any more. Under Druids’ Hill is a remarkable book with much to explore and consider.

Mandy Pannett 11th March 2026

Tears in the Fence 83 is out!

Tears in the Fence 83 is out!

Tears in the Fence 83 is now available at http://tearsinthefence.com/pay-it-forward and features poetry, prose and visual poetry, flash fiction, fiction and creative nonfiction by Judith Willson, Kelvin Corcoran, Kym Martindale, Lucy Ingrams, Michelle Penn, Mandy Pannett, Rimas Uzgiris, Kenny Knight, A.W. Kindness, Daša Kružlicová, Wendy Brandmark, Anya Reeve, Cherry Smyth, Lesley Burt, Kasia Flisick, Steve Spence, Charles Wilkinson, David Punter, Andrew Henon, Nigel Jarrett, Rachel Goodman, Robert Sheppard, Rebecca Rose Harris, Sarah Watkinson, Jane Wheeler, Jeanette Forbes, Vincent De Souza, Cathra Kelliher, Norman Jope, Pamela Coren, Beth Davyson, Heather Hughes, James Sutherland-Smith, Phil Williams, Kareem Tayyar, Basil King, John Freeman, Susie Wilson, Robert Hampson, Jean Atkin, David Pollard and Penny Hope.

The critical section consists of the Editorial by Joanna Nissel, Aidan Semmen’s 2025 Tears in the Fence Festival Address, Richard Foreman on J.H. Prynne, Elźbieta Wójcik-Leese on Ágnes Lehóczky, Barbara Bridger on Virginie Poitrasson, Guy Russell on Mark Goodwin, Peter Larkin on recent British & Canadian Ecopoetry, Kym Martindale on Eliza O’Toole, Robert Sheppard on Tim Allen, Ian Seed on Jeremy Over, Mandy Haggith on Gerry Loose, Mandy Haggith on Katherine Gallagher, Mandy Pannett on Lesley Saunders, Kelvin Corcoran in conversation with Alan Baker, Graham Hartill on Caroline Goodwin, Mandy Pannett on Agnieska Studzińska, Keith Jebb on Gavin Selerie and Tim Allen, Vincent De Souza on David Miller, Elaine Randell on Chris Emery, Morag Kiziewicz’s Electric Blue 18 and the Notes On Contributors.

Tears in the Fence 81 is out!

Tears in the Fence 81 is out!

Tears in the Fence 81 is now available at https://tearsinthefence.com/pay-it-forward/and features poetry, multilingual poetry, prose poetry, fiction and creative nonfiction by Alicia Byrne Keane, Lesley Burt, Kate Noakes, Lucy Ingrams, Jane Wheeler, Florence Ng, Angela Howarth Martinot, Kasia Flisiuk, Jasmina Bolfek-Radovani, Norman Jope, Frances Presley, Jessica Tillings, Steve Ely, Ian Seed, L. Kiew, Michael Henry, Catherine Fletcher, Bel Wallace, Holly Winter-Hughes, Tristan Moss, Paul A. Green,  Julian Dobson, David Sahner, Jess Bauldry, Mandy Pannett, Andrew Duncan, Blossom Hibbert, Keith Jebb, Paul Stephenson, Poonam Jain, Greg Bright, Helena Steel, Michael Loveday, Charles Green, Penny Hope, Charles Hadfield, Luke Emmett, C. P. Nield, Hannah Linden, Richard Foreman, Ilse Pedler and Charles Wilkinson.

The critical section consists of the Editorial by David Caddy, Gerald Killingworth’s Tears in the Fence 2024 Festival Address, Andrew Duncan on Allen Fisher, Barbara Bridger on Carol Watts, Guy Russell on Guillaume Apollinaire, Emily Moore on Gayl Jones, Robert Sheppard on Philip Terry, David Pollard on Alina Stefanescu, Barbara Bridger on Aneta Kamińska, Frances Presley on Hazel Smith, Steve Spence on Norman Jope, Charles Wilkinson, Michael Lee Rattigan on Anthony Seidman, Joanna Nissel on Ilse Pedler, Bob Cooper on Lesley Burt, Steve Spence on John Phillips, John Brantingham on Judy Kronenfeld, Morag Kiziewicz’s Electric Blue 16, David Caddy’s Afterword and Notes on Contributors.

Doubly Stolen Fire by Robert Sheppard (Aquifer)

Doubly Stolen Fire by Robert Sheppard (Aquifer)

It turns out, after all these years, that Robert Sheppard is a fictional writer, invented and ventriloquised by Alan Fissure and Robot Handsome. In Doubly Stolen Fire. Sheppard seems to admit that he is just as non-existent as the numerous poets he has previously invented for various anthologies and unrealised projects, all of which he has written about under various pseudonyms for non-existent academic-sounding journals. In a similar manner, most of these texts have been previously published in zines and magazines with unlikely-sounding monikers.

It is a literary hall of mirrors, a meandering authorial maze, where false references cite imaginary critics or non-existent articles or reviews by genuine academics or critics. The trouble is it is all so damn convincing! Who doesn’t want to believe in a talking mongoose or a mannequin which channels poetry during lockdown? Or that Liverpool is the epicentre of so many literary movements and so much radical poetics? Who hasn’t believed in a poet called Robert Sheppard, piecing together the sprawling opus that is Twentieth Century Blues or editing anthologies of beneath-the-radar European poets? Or the jovial facilitator and performer sharing pints, speaking in tongues or co-editing the day’s issue of Writer’s Foreplay with the late great Bob Cobbing?

But if I look back in time I can see how he invented me, too. He was editor of one of the first magazines to publish a poem of mine. He sent letters of support and encouragement, gradually convincing me to publish Stride magazine and then, in due course, Stride Publications, until I was in a position to publish several Robert Sheppard books. Meanwhile, small press volumes of poems I didn’t remember writing would turn up at an alarming rate, along with benevolent notes and positive reviews, all it now seems authored by Robert Sheppard.

Sheppard, himself, writes about the fictional poets of the past and future, but it is the influential imaginary poet of the present we should fear, spreading his alternative histories far and wide through the invisible networks of gullible uncreative writers and would-be poets. It feels unlikely now that the Great British Poetry Society Heist ever happened, or indeed, the Britpop Pottery Revival. In fact, a century of small press poetry and poets, including myself, looks likely to be part of the biggest literary hoax ever to be perpetuated on itself.

Except this is also an implausible construct. There is no Robert Sheppard, there is no editor, author and publisher Rupert Loydell; and he does not review books. Sheppard’s knotty tangles of poetics make no sense and there is no excuse for Fissure and Handsome’s sustained prank. I mean, surely there are enough bloody poets out there already, without inventing any more?

Afterword

I may be non-existent and also paranoid [True, ed.], but within minutes of writing this review on scrap paper in bed last night, I received the following email messages:

     1. If you publish that review you will be sorry.

     2. This is to confirm your pre-publication order of 50 copies of Never Knowingly Run Out of Words by Robert Sheppard. You will be charged when we feel like it.

3. Hi big boy, I’m Lorraine. I am 3.2 miles away. Would you like to see 
           my photos? Or meet up? 

This morning, a parcel van drew up and delivered 24 cans of what was labelled Twentieth Century Booze, along with a copy of the first instalment of Alan Fissure’s Out of Place and Robot Handsome’s An Explication of Colanders. There was also a handwritten copy of the first email, above, with the addition of We now where you lived, in green felt pen on the bottom.

Rupert Loydell 15th May 2024

Tears in the Fence 78 is out!

Tears in the Fence 78 is out!

Tears in the Fence 78 is now available at http://tearsinthefence.com/pay-it-forward and features poetry, prose poetry, visual poetry, translations and fiction by Mark Dickinson, Ian Seed, Eliza O’Toole, Lisa Pasold, Robert Sheppard, Lizzi Linklater, Mark Goodwin, Blossom Hibbert, Morag Kiziewicz, Kate Noakes, Kenny Knight, Matthew Carbery, Pratibha Castle, Lesley Burt, David Ball, Toon Tellegen translated by Judith Wilkinson, Chrissie Gittins, Carla Scarano D’Antonio, Siân Thomas, PQR Anderson, Elizabeth Wilson Davies, benjamin cusden, Basil King, Janet Hancock, Melissa Buckheit, Benjamin Larner, David Miller, Steve Spence, Amber Rollinson, Beth Davyson, Claire Watt, David Harmer, Sue Johns ,Kathleen McPhilemy, Robin Walter, Michael Henry, Elizabeth Parker, Alice Tarbuck, Joanna Nissel, Sarah Watkinson, Mandy Pannett, Charles Wilkinson, Valerie Bridge, Jane Wheeler, Alexandra Corrin-Tachibana and Naoise Gale,

The critical section consists of the Editorial by Richard Foreman, Letters to the Editor, Robert Hampson on Karenjit Sandhu, Jeremy Hilton on Kenneth Rexroth, Alan Baker on Yiannas Ritsos, Guy Russell on Denise Riley, Steve Spence on Ralph Hawkins, Sarah Watkinson on Katherine Towers, Andrew Duncan on Daniel zur Höhe translated by Anthony Mellors, Mandy Pannett on Mary Leader, Gisele Parnall on Kelvin Corcoran & Alan Halsey, Lesley Sharpe on Living with other people, Greg Bright on The Broken Word, Mandy Pannett on Andrea Moorhead, Peter Larkin on Mark Dickinson, Steve Spence on Luke Roberts, Deborah Harvey on Alexandra Fössinger,  Clare Morris on Carla Scarano D’Antonio, Kimmo Rosenthal on Marcel Proust, Steve Spence – An Update on the Poetry Scene in Plymouth, Barbara Bridger on Geraldine Clarkson, Morag Kiziewicz – Electric Blue 13 and Notes on Contributors.

David Caddy 7th August 2023

Of Necessity and Wanting by Sascha Akhtar (the 87 Press)

Of Necessity and Wanting by Sascha Akhtar (the 87 Press)

There are three stories of different lengths in Of Necessity and Wanting, each one a vignette of life in urban Pakistan, particularly in the cosmopolitan city of Karachi. Each story has its characters and themes but the connecting thread between them all is the city itself. One might also consider Karachi to be a character – a paradoxical, ‘not-so-beautiful’, dominating character – it would be hard to find another setting where these tales of ‘need’ and ‘want’ could unfold as they do in this ‘hell-hole’ of a city with its frenzy of traffic, canals clogged with raw sewage, its sicknesses and smells of rotting fish and smog, its beggar-lined streets of colour and glitter and flowers.

Then there is the heat, the exhausting, all-pervading heat which, as Zainab in the third story describes: 

(The sun) beat down with more ferocity as it got nearer to mid-afternoon … the dust filled your nostrils and coated your throat. Externally, it stuck to the rivulets of sweat that dripped down your face.’ 

The nearness of the sea offered a promise of some relief – until one got nearer and smelled ‘the pungent aroma of dead fish.’

Here is a description of a beach:

Clifton Beach was no beauty. The sands were verging on the black side of grey, with muck piled up everywhere. Slimy hills of seaweed, old shoes, dog excrement, human excrement, oil slicks and pieces of glass adorned the shore – this was no encouragement to walk barefoot and yet people did. Tonight, Javid walked right onto the beach craving the cool sands under his feet – the all-encompassing sound of the waves raging in his ears.

Karachi – a paradoxical city of grime and beauty. ‘May the seven saints continue to protect her,’ says Sascha Akhtar in a dedication.

The three stories are fascinating and very readable with strong, independent men and women fighting against the existences in which they find themselves and striving to discover ways of improving their lives. But the plots are there to carry the themes and it is those which stay in the memory. 

One example is the section called ‘Paani: Water’ which focuses on the issue of hydro-politics. Akram obtains employment as a manservant in a palatial house where he receives so much money he is able to send large amounts home to help support his family. He is responsible for overseeing many duties but what puzzles him is the fact that: 

:           Every four or five days, a white van pulled up at the house between 12 pm and 2 pm. Three men in blue shirts and trousers with name badges would wheel in a retinue of heavy, thick plastic barrels full of ‘purified’ water. They would make three trips, each one of them wheeling in three at a time.

This purified water is for the wealthy family only and there are barrels in every single room. When Akram persuades his employer to have all the servants tested, the results are shocking:

When the blood tests came back every single member of the domestic staff had some form of water-borne stomach illness from mild gastroenteritis to amoebic dysentery.

After this the servants are allowed and encouraged to drink as much boiled water as they wish – boiled water, not purified. It would cost too much, the employer says, to have filtered water for everyone.

Of Necessity and Wanting is a profound and thought-provoking book, rich with colour and compassion. I have long been an admirer of Sascha Akhtar’s poetry and it’s good to enjoy her journey into fiction. I’m looking forward to whatever she will write about next.

Mandy Pannett 22nd March 2023

Tears in the Fence 77 is out!

Tears in the Fence 77 is out!

Tears in the Fence 77 is now available at http://tearsinthefence.com/pay-it-forward and features poetry, prose poetry, translations, creative non-fiction and fiction by Lucy Ingrams, Jane Wheeler, Eliza O’Toole,  Steve Spence, Peter Larkin, David Miller, Beth Davyson, Benjamin Larner, Louise Buchler, Isobel Williams, Glenn Hubbard, Hanne Bramness translated by Anna Reckin, Daniela Esposito, Simon Collings, Poonam Jain, Giles Goodland, Michael Farrell, Richard Foreman, Cole Swenson, Lesley Burt, Jeremy Hilton, Greg Bright, Alexandra Corrin-Tachibana, John Freeman, Caroline Maldonado, Rosemarie Corlett, Robert Hamberger, Alicia Byrne Keane , Olivia Tuck, Penny Hope, Mary Leader, Christine Knight, Ann Pelletier-Topping, Jennie E. Owen, Natalie Crick, Sian Astor-Lewis, Laura Mullen, Gwen Sayers, Kevin Higgins and Graham Mort.

The critical section consists of the Editorial by David Caddy, Letters to the Editor by Andrew Duncan, Tim Allen, Jeremy Hilton and David Pollard, Peter Larkin on Rewilding the Expressive: a Poetic Strategy, Andrew Duncan on Peter Finch, David Pollard on Patricia McCarthy, Simon Collings on Jasmina Bolfek-Radovani,  Ben Philipps on Veronica Forrest-Thomson, Olivia Tuck on Linda Collins, Will Fleming on Maurice Scully, Louise Buchler on Caitlin Stobie, Mark Wilson on Sandeep Parmar, Simon Collings on Stephen Watts, Martin Stannard on Julia Rose Lewis & Nathan Hyland Walker, Barbara Bridger on Alexandra Corrin-Tachibana, Claire Booker on David Pollard, Gisele Parnall on Paul Eric Howlett, Louise Buchler on Rebecca May Johnson, Simon Jenner on Steve Spence and Andrew Martin, Andrew Duncan on Philip Pacey, Mandy Pannett on Seán Street, Morag Kiziewicz’s  Electric Blue 12 and Notes On Contributors. 

Hy Brazil by Gerald Killingworth (Matador)

Hy Brazil by Gerald Killingworth (Matador)

Hy Brazil is an absorbing and compelling book written in the tradition of historical fantasy, which is an intriguing genre. The narrative is set in Elizabethan England, beginning in the year 1591, but the fantastic elements, which encompass two thirds of the novel, take place in a fabled realm inhabited by the elven folk, the phantom island of Hy Brazil supposedly in the Atlantic somewhere west of Ireland and marked on several maps of the time. Legends describe this Celtic Otherworld as cloaked in mist except for one day every seven years when it becomes visible. Always, however, it is supposed to be unreachable.

The book is written in the first person by Edward Harry, and everything is perceived from his viewpoint. This is clearly stated in the Foreword which declares ‘I myself, Edward Harry, am the only begetter and so I shall be the first word in all the telling.’ The Prologue continues this assertion with the opening line ‘I was born I know not when; where and from what parents no soul has ever thought fit to inform me.’ The generalised name of ‘Boy’ soon irritates the child who insists of being called by the names of two great kings. This attitude is a key to Edward’s character as he reveals himself to be impetuous, impulsive, arrogant, a quick-witted character with a love of adventure, ambitious and self-seeking to the hilt as he ‘reached out for glory and the company of my betters.’ Edward Harry has a great many faults which frequently land him in trouble, but he is also honourable and principled, compassionate, loyal, and very likeable.

Early in the book, Edward becomes Secretary to Edmund Spenser, the poet, and I found this a fascinating section. The background is the imposition of rule by the English upon Ireland and the hardship and suffering this caused. The name of Spenser in Ireland is still one to be spoken with a curse. Edward Harry himself is proud of being English. His opinion on the situation is ‘That they (the Irish) had lost all their possessions no doubt followed because they were unfit to hold them.’ Spenser himself is presented as something of an enigma for ‘he seemed to be two men; the one quite willing to root out all Irishmen so that the other, the poet, could enjoy their countryside in peace.’

A subtle touch introduces the fantastic elements of Hy Brazil when Edward and his friend Calvagh are blown off course while at sea in a small boat and find themselves landing on the shores of the fabulous island, not knowing what adventures will befall them. ‘We were drawn,’ says Edward, ‘wherever the green line led, to the rainbow’s end, to the rim of the world, or perhaps to Hell.’ The situation, in fact, does develop into something resembling Hell for Hy Brazil is not a pretty, dream-like island with elves and fairies and sweet-talking animals but a place of brutality, violence and ongoing savagery and conflict.

Edward’s adventures are riveting and I, for one, relished the strangeness, the grotesques, and monstrosities and the ‘motley assemblage of oddities’ that creep into the novel under Gerald Killingworth’s brilliantly skilful and imaginative pen.

This is most definitely a book that once started is not to be put down. Hy Brazil is intended to be the first of a trilogy and I hope it will be. It is too good not to be continued. Every reader will want to know what happens next.

For further information and purchase of copies contact Gerald Killingworth at gkllngwrth@aol.com

Mandy Pannett 18th October 2022

Tears in the Fence 76 is out!

Tears in the Fence 76 is out!

Tears in the Fence 76, 208 pp, is now available at http://tearsinthefence.com/pay-it-forward and features poetry, prose poetry, multilingual poetry, fiction and flash fiction by David Annwn, Charles Wilkinson, Lydia Harris, Jane Robinson, Daragh Breen, L.Kiew, Valerie Bridge, Sarah Watkinson, Poonam Jain, Helen Scadding, Alan Baker, Paul Marshall, Peter Dent, Andrew Henon, Mohammad Razai, Jennie Byrne, Luke Emmett, Mark Goodwin, Eleanor Rees, Sophie Segura, Robin Walter, Jill Eulalie Dawson, Rachael Clyne, Wendy Clayton, Mike McNamara, Diana Powell, Simon Jenner, Rodney Wood, Janet Hancock, Hannah Linden, Elizabeth McClaire Roberts, Michael Henry, Alan Dent, Alexandra Corrin-Tachibana, Birgitta Bellême, Melanie Ann Vance, Mary Michaels, Huw Gwynn-Jones, Mike Duggan and John Kinsella, from Metaphysics.

The critical section consists of Joanna Nissel’s Editorial, Mark Prendergast in Conversation with Abigail Chabitnoy, Sam Warren-Miell on the British Right’s world of poetry, Robert Hampson on Nothing is being suppressed by Andrew Duncan, Barbara Bridger on Maria Stadnicka, Aidan Semmens on Jeremy Hilton, Barbara Bridger on Sarona Abuake,  Kathleen McPhilemy on Giles Goodland, Sarah Watkinson on Steve Ely, Alan Baker on Lila Matsumoto, Kathy Miles on John Freeman, Marcus Slease on Chrissy Williams, Carla Scarano on the Poetry of Ian Seed, Vicky Grut on Wendy Erskine, Olivia Tuck on Victoria Kennefick, Andrew Duncan on Khaled Hakim, Graham Harthill on Gerry Loose, Siân Thomas on Pnina Shinebourne, Mandy Pannett on Caroline Maldonado, Paul Matthews on Kay Syrad, Norman Jope on Paul Celan translated by Joan Boase-Beier, Kiran Bhat on Rishi Dastidar, Guy Russell on Derek Gromadzki, Rupert Loydell and Steve Waling in Correspondence, Morag Kiziewicz ‘s Electric Blue 11 and Notes On Contributors .

David Caddy 14th October 2022

I Don’t Want To Go To The Taj Mahal by Charlie Hill (Repeater Books)

I Don’t Want To Go To The Taj Mahal by Charlie Hill (Repeater Books)

I Don’t Want to Go to the Taj Mahal is comprised of a series of ninety-five vignettes, mostly single page length, the shortest being two lines long. An epigram by Samuel Beckett is appropriate for the content: ‘It’s all a muddle in my head, graves and nuptials and the different varieties of motion.’ The reader is treated to snapshots views of the author’s family, his schooldays, his days in the youth club or drinking in the bikers’ club. Music and records provide a backcloth to lost chances, lost loves, and there is a whole string of early jobs in a fish shop, the Co Op, a packaging firm, Samuel the jeweller and Harrison Drape, the factory for curtain accessories where he drove a forklift truck ‘because it was the best of a shit job’ but nearly lost life and limb when it toppled off a ramp as he reversed it. Most of these jobs ended with him being escorted off the premises because of too many days going awol or putting himself on flexitime. One vignette describes a romantic interlude with a first love when he phoned up pretending to be snowbound in Devon so that ‘we spent the morning warm under thin blankets, feeding each other fresh strawberries dipped in cream, mouth-to-mouth.’

Throughout, the writing is detailed but concise with pithy comments. Sunday evenings in boyhood were spent watching a BBC serial ‘with bonnets and sideburns and Mum would provide us with plates of pilchard sandwiches.’ There are layers of implication in this remark about the siblings: ‘My elder sister resented my presence, my younger brother had blue eyes and curly blond hair.’ The tone is consistently laconic such as this one: ‘One year we won a goldfish at the Mop … by the time we got it home the goldfish was dead.’ Or there is this analysis of a relationship: ‘I am with a woman. We lived together, she went away, we lived together, we can’t anymore, so how does this work now?’ A comment on another relationship, many years later with a film maker, is equally downbeat and anti-climactic when he remembers her with nostalgia and thinks how good it would be to reminisce together ‘so I look her up, send her an email and hear nothing back.’

One of the most enjoyable aspects of these vignettes is Charlie Hill’s skill is creating a sense of time and place. Scenes of life in Birmingham are evoked:

‘I live in inner-city Balsall Heath with outlaws, dole-ites and artists and get a job with a packaging firm. The packaging firm is in Tysely, a fraying patchwork of factory estates and boarded-up pubs. I smoke among the cardboard boxes in the warehouses … After managing an office consisting of me all day, I come home to a house full of New Age travellers chopping speed … and a tea of Special Brew and noodles.’ 

A passage I find especially evocative is set in India where the author has gone in search of his girl friend:

‘We sit on flat roofs and look at the cows and the billboards advertising toothpaste. From the Ganges we hear incantations, while in the narrow street below men play chess. There is a festival on and the sky is full of bright kites, darting like sprats, stitching the sky with messages of devotion. She says it would be a nice idea if we get married. I demur.’

Subtle humour and I Don’t Want to Go to the Taj Mahal is rich in it. But it’s humour with an undertone of the bitter-sweet, the nostalgic and poignant. This a book I loved reading. Unforgettable.

Mandy Pannett 11th August 2021